2ND TEST RESULTS...

Oh wow!!! I tested again this morning using a First Response and it was a definitely BFP!!!!!

I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really didn't expect to be successful on our FIRST try! And neither did Shad.

His first reaction was, "No, not yet!" He was terrified about what this will mean financially. By the time we went to bed last night, though, he was telling me how much he loves me and was kinda being emotional about it. He was also asking a lot of questions, which is good. I think we're both going to be back and forth between fear, excitement, nervousness, happiness, etc. for a while.

We're just going to have to trust that God wants it this way for a reason. For me to get pregnant so quickly is a miracle in itself! Now, the next part is to hopefully carry this child to full term. I don't know what I'd do if I miscarried!!!

Shad was hesitant about telling people at first. He said that I should wait until after the first 12 weeks. However, I told him that's fine and dandy for friends, co-workers, acquaintences, but we're going to be telling our immediate family as soon as possible. I plan to call for a doctor's appointment to confirm by blood test (if they do that!) on Monday. I would really like to get in next Friday afternoon since I get off work at 11:00. That way, nobody at work will know yet. As for telling our family, if I can contain myself, we'll tell everyone on Mother's Day weekend. That will make for such a great Mother's Day gift for my mom. I've already decided that we'll be telling her first since I'm closest to her.

My dad is coming over here from Knoxville by himself to bring us his gas grill and my jewelry bag that I left at the cabin in February. He'll be spending tonight and leaving first thing tomorrow morning. It's going to be so hard to not tell him! I had to go hide all the baby stuff in our guest room. Only 3 more weeks! None of our family lives in town with us, so at most, we see them on weekends. Then, it's only about once a month, so hopefully, these 3 weeks will fly by!

Wow! I still just can't believe it! A Christmas baby!

TESTING DAY!!! Am I pregnant???

CD28, 14 dpo

Well, I tested and got what I consider a LFP. The very faint line showed up after the 3 minutes but before the 10 minutes. I'm not convinced yet as it was only a cheapy test and will keep temping and testing over the next few days until I'm convinced or AF shows up. I really don't know how I feel; it's all so unreal right now.

While I was getting ready this morning, Shad called to let me know that he was going to be heading straight for the bathroom when he got home from work. I had to hurry to get my stuff transferred to the bedroom so I could continue getting ready while he was occupying our only bathroom. I had thrown the test and test box away and didn't bury it (I should've taken it straight to the outside can instead!). Therefore, HE SAW IT BEFORE I WANTED HIM TO! Dang it! So much for surprising him!

Anyway, I don't know yet if the positive is true or false, so like I mentioned above, I'll keep testing over the next few days until I'm convinced.

I can't believe this is possibly true just yet!!!

CD 27, 13 dpo, 1 day until testing

I went to the Dollar Tree today during my lunch break and bought another hpt. If my temp stays up tomorrow morning, that's when I'll be testing! I am SOOO nervous. I SO want it to be positive, but keep thinking that I'm not THAT lucky! This is only my first month of ttc. Although, I could take after my mom in that she would get pregnant right away. Who knows...

My next update will be tomorrow with the results!

CD 26, 12 dpo, 2 days until testing

Today is cd26, 12 dpo, 2 days until testing.

Well, after trying SO hard not to cave in and test, I FLUNKED! I went home during my lunch break today and tested...BFN. So much for the self-control and patience!

It's probably wishful thinking, but I *thought* I saw something like an evaporation line. It was probably all in my head, though. I'm only 12 dpo and it wasn't FMU (yeah, yeah...I KNOW I wasn't going to test in the pm). I'm not too dissappointed yet. If I still have a high temp tomorrow morning, I'll go buy another hpt during my lunch break and test first thing Friday morning AS ORIGINALLY PLANNED.

CD 25, 11 dpo, 3 days until testing

Today is cd25, 11 dpo, 3 days to testing...I'm getting closer! I have now made it past the 10-day LP mark! I had to resist the urge to test when I got up this morning. I keep telling myself that I've made it this far, I can make it 3 more days! Plus, I'm only giving myself the option to test first thing in the morning; if I miss the morning, then I'll have to wait until the next one (unless I'm already 14 or more dpo). I can't believe my temps are staying up! Someone on a BBC board told me yesterday that it looked like they were on a downward slope, but today it went right back up to 98.1 (98.2 has been my highest this cycle)! I don't have ANY symptoms now, and haven't since the slight nausea on Sunday. I've been trying to keep a positive attitude that just because I don't have any symptoms doesn't mean I'm NOT pregnant.

Yesterday, Carmen at work brought in a nursery set (comforter, sheets, bumper pad, musical mobile, 2 valances, wall hanging, border paper roll, and lamp and shade) for me to look at in the teddy bear decoration that her neighbor is trying to sell. She bought it brand new for $350.00, but only wanted $40.00 for it from me. It seems to be gender neutral, which is what I was wanting. Carmen's neighbor had used it for both her dd's since she didn't know the sex before they were born.

I figured Shad would probably think I'm nuts, but I told Carmen that I needed to go home and "discuss" it with him. Needless to say, there wasn't much "discussing" to it! I pretty much told him that I AM NOT passing up an offer this good! I ended up buying it today.

My dad might come on Saturday and possibly spend the night. If he does, I guess I'll have to hide all the baby stuff...unless I get a BFP on Friday! It's not that he'll say anything to me anyway if he sees baby stuff, but I'd just really like it to be a surprise whenever the time does come to make the announcement. Plus, I'd really like my mom to be the first person I tell.

He's planning to bring over a gas grill that he's giving us in addition to my jewelry bag that I left at the cabin the last time. Plus, this weekend is the weekend before my birthday. When I spoke to him last night, he wasn't really sure when/if he would come or if he'd spend the night. Hopefully he'll let me know soon.

CD 23, 9 dpo, 5 days until testing

cd23, 9 dpo, 5 days until testing. Boy is it getting so much harder to not test each day! As far as symptoms go...I'm not as tired as I was a few days ago, so it must be the change in my work schedule that had me worn out. Also, my appetite has been normal the last 2 days. On the other hand, I did have a bout with nausea this afternoon after eating mexican food for lunch, so maybe there's still some hope.

My temp this morning took a small dive, but is still well above FF's coverline. Both months since coming off bcp's, AF started on the day my temp dropped below the coverline. I'm just praying that if AF does show up, she'll wait until Tuesday at the EARLIEST. That would give me another 10 day LP. Of course, I'd prefer it to be even longer than that, but just as long as it's not shorter than 10!

Our meeting with the mortgage lender on Friday went okay. He seems to think that we'll have no problem getting approved if we take care of a couple of things. Neither one of them are legitimate claims, so we now have the headache of dealing with the 3 credit bureaus to try to get them removed. They have 30 days to reply to us one way or another from the day they get the letter, so hopefully we'll know something positive next month around this time. If everything goes well, then afterward we can start talking to the realtor again and deciding on what to do. So now I'll have something else to keep my mind occupied while ttc. As far as continuing to ttc while going through the house-hunting/building, I feel that if God wants us to endure both, then that's what will happen and we'll be okay in the end. Therefore, unless Shad asks to wait a while, I plan on going ahead.

Shad admitted to me the other day that the reason he's been hesitant on having kids is because he's scared to death of the whole financial aspect of it, which is just what I suspected. I feel that we'll be okay, though. If it's meant to be, it'll happen.