CD 21, 7 dpo, 7 days until testing

Today is cd21, 7 dpo & 7 days until testing (or AF). I've kind of been holding off on writing because I've been waiting to see each day what my temps are going to do. I'm not too knowledgable about tri-phasic patterns and charting in general, but I'm wondering if that's what mine is (tri-phasic). I really don't know if I'm having "pregnancy symptoms" or if it's just my body adjusting to getting up an hour earlier and working 9 hour days instead of 8. I've noticed that I've been really tired this week (again, new work schedule) and that I'm actually hungry in the morning (I'm usually not) and more frequently throughout the day even though I do eat lunch and dinner. If I weren't ttc, none of these "symptoms" would make me think twice. However, I'm still trying really hard not to get my hopes up. I feel so much like I'm in limbo. I wish it was a shorter time to wait before testing. Yes, I'd really like to be pregnant, but mainly I just want to know one way or the other.

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Shad and I met my friend, Lois, for lunch last Saturday to visit and talk about real estate. She suggested we get in touch with the mortgage lender that she uses, so I've made an appointment with him for this afternoon (Friday) at 2:00 pm. Lois seemed to think that we'd be able to build a house, but it all depends on what happens with the lender today. I've already been looking at house plans and have found the one both Shad and I would really like to build. I'm probably jumping the gun, though, since we have no idea what size house we could build or IF we could even build at all. I REALLY want to be in our own house by the time we have a child and can't believe that this has all fallen together around the same time. I'm thinking that if I didn't get pregnant this time, I might postpone ttc until around July or so just to give us more time to focus on the house-buying/building situation.

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Well, I found out last night my STUPID thing I did after my gall bladder surgery in December!!! Apparently, while Shad was at church the evening I had my surgery, and Richard was staying with me, I TOLD HIM OUR TTC PLANS!!! I was so drugged that I don't remember any conversations WHATSOEVER!!! Of course, since it was back in December, even I didn't know when exactly we were going to start...just sometime in 2005. Thankfully, though, I'm not feeling so bad about him knowing now, since this is the first time he's brought it up. The only reason he even said anything about it last night was because we've now brought into the mix wanting to buy a house. He asked Shad if he thought we could handle buying/building a house and having a baby.

CD 18, 4 dpo, 10 days until testing

Today is now cd18, 4 dpo, 10 days until testing if AF doesn't come first. I'm HOPING and PRAYING for a LP length of more than 10 days, if not a pregnancy. I really don't expect to get a BFP this first time trying, but my mind still seems to be playing tricks on me. My "symptoms" include fatigue (more likely from the time change and going into work an hour earlier) and mild heartburn (not too common for me, but does happen occasionally). Actually, the heartburn has been off and on for the last couple of days. Thankfully, I realize that I experience these same symptoms when I'm NOT ttc, so am not wracked with worry over it all. I'm pretty confident that I can hold off until April 15 to test, but I don't think I'll need to. I've got this gut feeling that nothing happened this time around, but am still hoping and praying, so only 10 more days until something happens or will have happened.