Christopher As An Only Child???

I really hope not, but after Shad and I had a discussion late last night, it's not looking too good. I know I've said in the past that I'd be okay having only Christopher (I feel blessed to just have ONE!), but I'll be heartbroken if we can't have another! As a child, I always planned on having at least 2 kids. It used to be 3, but in the last few years, I lowered it to 2. Also, I want so badly to have a daughter. I've had the name Rebecca Lynn picked out since before Shad and I were even married. If Christopher were a girl, that's what he would've been named. I realize that, even if we have a 2nd child, there's no guarantee we'll have a girl, but I'd at least like the chance to try.

Due to several difficult life circumstances, though, it's not looking like we'll have the chance to try for another anytime soon. I know that God has a plan for us, but sometimes it's so difficult to do what he wants!