4 weeks 3 days (2)

I went to the doctor's office for the blood test today. Of course, it was BFP, which didn't surpise me. I had this fear, though, that all those hpt's were wrong and the blood test would end up a BFN. I have my first appointment scheduled for Thursday, April 28. I'm hoping to hold out on telling parents until AT LEAST after that day. I still want to stick with telling them Mother's Day weekend.

Patience...patience...patience!

4 weeks 3 days (1)

As far as I can tell, I'm still pregnant! I used the last hpt that I had on hand yesterday morning and it was still a bfp. It all still feels so much like a dream. Every now and then I have to stop and think, "This IS real. I AM pregnant!" I think it'll be more of a reality when I see an ultrasound and hear the heartbeat. I pray over and over that I carry this child full term and it's healthy! I'm scared to death of having a miscarriage!!!

I called the doctor's office yesterday to try and get in for a blood test to confirm everything. I was told that I just need to walk in the office to have it done; I don't need an appointment. I was going to wait until Friday, but have decided to go today during my lunch break. I'm hoping that I can get in to see my doctor pretty soon after the blood test. I have no idea what's going to happen during that visit. It would be really neat to already have an ultrasound to give our family when we break the news to them, but I'm not counting on it.

Last night was my first softball game. I went ahead and told my coaches since I felt it was something that they should be aware of at least. I told them that I plan to continue playing as long as I feel okay and the doctor allows it. They said that if nothing else, they could put me in as DH. I play right field, though, so am not at a very dangerous spot. It doesn't even really get a lot of activity, but would still require a little more effort from me. It all depends on what the doctor says and how I feel each game. We won last night 14-6 and have our next game on Thursday evening. Another reason I don't want to have to quit playing is because the other women would know something was up since I'm always there...and I'm not injured this time like I was last season. I'd really like to keep things hush-hush until I'm through the first trimester.

Shad went ahead and told his boss that I'm pregnant hoping to speed up the process of getting him into management. His boss was going to Haiti (or somewhere down there) on business and would be back later this week. He said that they would talk then. I'm hoping and praying that this all works out for him. We REALLY need more money!

Symptoms: Not much - still hungry and using the bathroom somewhat more frequently than normal; only a couple of twinges of nausea-nothing too noticeable; mainly more of my normal stomach issues that I contribute to nervousness and stress. I really don't even FEEL pregnant yet, so I hope everything's okay!

4 weeks 1 day

I'm still in total shock! Shad seemed to be okay late yesterday and now again today. However, I'm sure he's still got "finances" on the brain.

I told Alanna at church this morning, but Jen wasn't there. That's okay, though. I should see her on Wednesday, so can tell her then.

My dad came yesterday afternoon, spent the night and left this morning. It was SO hard not saying anything to him! I really want my mom to be the first one I break the news to, so I just had to keep biting my tongue. I don't know HOW I'm going to be able to keep my mouth shut for 3 WEEKS!

I started a pregnancy journal yesterday morning. I'll start out writing the first few days and then probably only as things happen (symptoms, doctor's appointments, etc.).

Alanna told me today that the next consignment sale is next weekend, with Saturday being 1/2 price day. Now I've got a real excuse and can go!

As for symptoms...I really haven't noticed much of anything. My stomach has been growling a lot more than usual and I've been going to the bathroom a lot more. We had La Siesta for lunch after church again today. We'll see how I feel later, but so far, so good. Until I go to the doctor, I plan to eat pretty much my normal foods. Of course, I'll leave out the stuff I KNOW to be unhealthy, but I really need some guidance on quick and easy healthy meals to eat. I never used to eat much or anything at all for breakfast, but have this past week been eating an apple or orange. I know I should eat more than that and plan to get more ideas to do so. I really hope I can get in to see the doctor on Friday.

Another thing I'm not sure about is playing softball. We have our first game tomorrow night and another one on Thursday night. I'll go ahead and play this week. Hopefully, I can continue playing. Everybody's counting on me so much since we're not sure how many will show up for each game. I've always been consistent and reliable about being there. I really do want to continue to play. The season only goes until June 9, which would put me at 11 weeks. I'll see what the doctor says.