CD 23, 9 dpo, 5 days until testing

cd23, 9 dpo, 5 days until testing. Boy is it getting so much harder to not test each day! As far as symptoms go...I'm not as tired as I was a few days ago, so it must be the change in my work schedule that had me worn out. Also, my appetite has been normal the last 2 days. On the other hand, I did have a bout with nausea this afternoon after eating mexican food for lunch, so maybe there's still some hope.

My temp this morning took a small dive, but is still well above FF's coverline. Both months since coming off bcp's, AF started on the day my temp dropped below the coverline. I'm just praying that if AF does show up, she'll wait until Tuesday at the EARLIEST. That would give me another 10 day LP. Of course, I'd prefer it to be even longer than that, but just as long as it's not shorter than 10!

Our meeting with the mortgage lender on Friday went okay. He seems to think that we'll have no problem getting approved if we take care of a couple of things. Neither one of them are legitimate claims, so we now have the headache of dealing with the 3 credit bureaus to try to get them removed. They have 30 days to reply to us one way or another from the day they get the letter, so hopefully we'll know something positive next month around this time. If everything goes well, then afterward we can start talking to the realtor again and deciding on what to do. So now I'll have something else to keep my mind occupied while ttc. As far as continuing to ttc while going through the house-hunting/building, I feel that if God wants us to endure both, then that's what will happen and we'll be okay in the end. Therefore, unless Shad asks to wait a while, I plan on going ahead.

Shad admitted to me the other day that the reason he's been hesitant on having kids is because he's scared to death of the whole financial aspect of it, which is just what I suspected. I feel that we'll be okay, though. If it's meant to be, it'll happen.

CD 21, 7 dpo, 7 days until testing

Today is cd21, 7 dpo & 7 days until testing (or AF). I've kind of been holding off on writing because I've been waiting to see each day what my temps are going to do. I'm not too knowledgable about tri-phasic patterns and charting in general, but I'm wondering if that's what mine is (tri-phasic). I really don't know if I'm having "pregnancy symptoms" or if it's just my body adjusting to getting up an hour earlier and working 9 hour days instead of 8. I've noticed that I've been really tired this week (again, new work schedule) and that I'm actually hungry in the morning (I'm usually not) and more frequently throughout the day even though I do eat lunch and dinner. If I weren't ttc, none of these "symptoms" would make me think twice. However, I'm still trying really hard not to get my hopes up. I feel so much like I'm in limbo. I wish it was a shorter time to wait before testing. Yes, I'd really like to be pregnant, but mainly I just want to know one way or the other.

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Shad and I met my friend, Lois, for lunch last Saturday to visit and talk about real estate. She suggested we get in touch with the mortgage lender that she uses, so I've made an appointment with him for this afternoon (Friday) at 2:00 pm. Lois seemed to think that we'd be able to build a house, but it all depends on what happens with the lender today. I've already been looking at house plans and have found the one both Shad and I would really like to build. I'm probably jumping the gun, though, since we have no idea what size house we could build or IF we could even build at all. I REALLY want to be in our own house by the time we have a child and can't believe that this has all fallen together around the same time. I'm thinking that if I didn't get pregnant this time, I might postpone ttc until around July or so just to give us more time to focus on the house-buying/building situation.

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Well, I found out last night my STUPID thing I did after my gall bladder surgery in December!!! Apparently, while Shad was at church the evening I had my surgery, and Richard was staying with me, I TOLD HIM OUR TTC PLANS!!! I was so drugged that I don't remember any conversations WHATSOEVER!!! Of course, since it was back in December, even I didn't know when exactly we were going to start...just sometime in 2005. Thankfully, though, I'm not feeling so bad about him knowing now, since this is the first time he's brought it up. The only reason he even said anything about it last night was because we've now brought into the mix wanting to buy a house. He asked Shad if he thought we could handle buying/building a house and having a baby.

CD 18, 4 dpo, 10 days until testing

Today is now cd18, 4 dpo, 10 days until testing if AF doesn't come first. I'm HOPING and PRAYING for a LP length of more than 10 days, if not a pregnancy. I really don't expect to get a BFP this first time trying, but my mind still seems to be playing tricks on me. My "symptoms" include fatigue (more likely from the time change and going into work an hour earlier) and mild heartburn (not too common for me, but does happen occasionally). Actually, the heartburn has been off and on for the last couple of days. Thankfully, I realize that I experience these same symptoms when I'm NOT ttc, so am not wracked with worry over it all. I'm pretty confident that I can hold off until April 15 to test, but I don't think I'll need to. I've got this gut feeling that nothing happened this time around, but am still hoping and praying, so only 10 more days until something happens or will have happened.